Monday, April 6, 2009

My Recent Happenings

I have not been able to get any stitching done in the last week. I am barely reading the posts in the digest from the groups I am in, much less being able to take time to respond. I am reading the ones withe Papillion Creations SAL. I am waiting on my fabric to arrive which should be any day! I am working on a 'model stitch' that is needing to be completed quickly, I am contacting the designer and having to return it. I hate to do so, but it will unfair to her if I keep it and do not complete it in time.

My 14 year old son, Anthony, has been in the hospital for a week now. He was also there for 2 weeks in February. He is not doing well at all. His official diagnosis has been changed to 'mixed mood disorder not otherwise defined'. This is the hardest type to treat since it is bits and pieces of a few disorders and all can not be treated. I took him because he punched me his fist, threw his shoes at me and told me he was going to kill me. He is most likely going to a residential treatment facility in San Antonio some time this week. That does not mean that he will live their means he will be there until his behavior shows he can come home. He was in a similar facility 2 years ago for 2 months.

Last month during Spring Break he threw a skateboard at his dad's house and put a hole in his bedroom door. His dad locked himself in his bedroom fearing for his life (Dad's exact words). He states that Anthony is not welcome in his house anymore. The facility will most likely require weekly therapy sessions in person--the burden will entirely be on me. His dad states he will go visit him. I am thinking "For what?" he is not willing to attend the therapy sessions, so I am not sure I want him to be able to visit. If he is to going to have him go to his house, why visit him in a facility? If he is not going to be a parent, why show up? I will be sending him an email shortly saying so, unless my friend talks me out of it (good luck to her). I have also thought that I could talk to therapist at the facility and make it a requirement that his dad attend therapy sessions in order to be allowed visitation. It may already be a requirement, I am not sure.

I am hanging on as usual. I absolutely wish that God would stop trying to make me a stronger person and move onto someone else already---I am sick of hearing things like 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger'. I do not wish to be any freakin stronger!!! A normal life without this many issues would be wonderful and gratefully appreciated!!! lol